a very upsetting event

This blog was written by me-Björn,
my intention is for only my family members to read it but i guess there is no way of preventing
others from reading it too.

Tomorrow(28/2/06) will be six month anniversary with my beautiful girlfriend Chrissy. She
is the girl that I would most like to spend the rest of my life with. I gave her my heart and the
rest of my life, however, she seems not to have realised this. On Friday 24 Feb (3 days ago)
a boy from Chrissy's school began flirting with her over the internet. Without realising what she
was doing Chrissy began to do the same back and then moved on to texting. On sunday Chrissy told me at the beginning of the church meeting that she needed to tell me something, I did not think anything of this and carried on with the worship. Chrissy then showed one of her friends
a picture on her mobile and when she went to put it away I asked if I could mess around with her phone, she said yes and I then continued to play a game on the phone.
It was then that I decided to see how many texts I had sent Chrissy but found a name a did not recognise amongst my texts. I thought nothing of this and decided to check the outbox, there were only 5 messages in this and so I decided to look at these. Apparently I turned pale immediately, Chrissy's phone is one that saves messages meaning you have to personally delete them to remove them. The messages were to the name I did not recognise.

I tapped Chrissy on the shoulder to ask her what it was, she too turned pale, she then put the phone in her pocket and put her face in her hands. At this I walked away and out of the hall,
I was furious, hurt and confused. It felt as though she had thrown everything I had given her over the past six months, including my heart, into the sea. Chrissy ran out of the other exit crying. My dad then took me outside for a walk and advised me in what course to take. I went back and took Chrissy outside to ask her why and to find out what she had done with him so far.

We had a conversation in which I found out that she had been overwhelmed by this boy who had said that he was madly in love with her and that she had been confused. I had no idea how many times a person could say sorry till then, I accepted the apologies and told her that I still wanted to be with her and would always love her no matter what(much to her great surprise as she had expected me to dump her then and there).

I had forgotten how long a person could cry for, it turns out its a long time, and I ended up crying myself to sleep that evening. It is true that it will be incredibly hard to regain the trust that she once had and I have reassured her that if anything like this ever happens again that that it will definitely be over because if she can still love other people after a 6 month relationship then I am not the right person for her and she deserves only the best, even if it means that she will not be mine.

I have not written this to embarass or chastise Chrissy but for my family to know the situation,
I still love her and I have forgiven her so I will not hear a word against her. She was, is and always will be my one true love.